I am so very glad you pushed through the pain and discomfort and published those words, Samantha Beach. This is therapy right here.
Obviously it’s not as easy or as comfortable as having someone holding your hand but it’s mightily effective, doubly so because this is something you’re doing to help yourself AND you’re helping other folks in the process.
You and I are in the same boat with therapy — or rather the absence thereof — but we seem to be finding ways to cope, because needs must.
What matters is doing something rather than collapsing in on yourself so you’re doing good, Sam, keep at it!