I don’t know how I feel about this, Erika Sauter. Ultimately, we’re all humans and whatever cannot be shared tends to fester in silence until it poisons your life.
Also, no matter how shocking something may be, it’ll always be familiar to at least one other person. The only difficulty here, at least for me, is the people around me and not wanting to hurt them or make them feel exposed.
Fiction is a good medium for personal stuff that feels too raw and can offer some relief.
The important thing is to get this monster out, using whichever medium you feel most comfortable with, be it words, or pictures, or music, or collages…
Otherwise it’ll continue to haunt and hinder you.