Thank you for your kind words, Emily Kate. As you rightly point out, there are no words that can make any of this better. Grief is just something we need to go through, you with Eddie, me with Anthony, however long it takes us.
I do not expect to emerge from it any time soon, if ever. Meanwhile, I try and keep going, fumbling for words and reaching out to those whose life he touched and who now also feel very lost.