Thanks for your response, Elizabeth Kennedy, and I’m sorry you can relate… It turns out more people than I thought actually can and all this pain breaks my heart.
As for faking being well, my problem was that I lost the ability to do that at one point. It has thankfully returned but then again I’m also doing much better these days. While progress is far from linear, I’m OK enough to conceal the distress when it strikes so I can keep functioning. It’s not always easy and I barely pull it off at times… It seems a lot of recovery is down to learning how to practice effective damage control.
Sending you much love. xo